:..I've spent the past two hours giving up on the past...:


I've spent the last two hours looking on PSC instead of cramming for finals. :)


i'm glad tho, I got a push of inspiration.

Things have been pretty sucky lately. It's been one thing after another for far too long.

Today is a new day.

I'm going to feel healthy again.

Wing to Wing and Oar to Oar

Two such as you with such a master speed,

cannot be parted nor be swept away,

from one another once you are agreed,

that life is only life forevermore,

together wing to wing and oar to oar.

Robert Frost

<3

I feel healthy when i'm with him. It feels like the sickness and disease of the world can't touch me when i'm in his arms. Nothing can touch me. Every time i'm losing it he makes me hold on just a little longer. My one little strand of sanity is safely kept in his hands.

Everything seems to be falling down around, but he's holding me up. In every breakdown, he has kissed away my tears.

I feel so comfortable with him, like i've known him forever. Almost like we grew up together, like best friends falling in love.

"I want to fall in love over current events and coffee.

I want to fall in love on a swingset at midnight.

I want to fall in love over cartoons on a sunday.

I want to fall in love over and over until my knees hurt from falling.

I want to fall in love on a first snow's walk.

I want to fall in love over teardrops and movies.

I want to fall in love with you over and over

because falling just once,

is too fast, too swift

not to relive again and again."

10, 9, 8, 7...

Without saying names...
Ten apologies to ten different people:
1. I'm sorry I didnt fight for you.I should've protected you
2.I'm sorry that I just don't care
3.i'm sorry that i can't be everything you deserve
4.i'm sorry i led you on
5.i'm sorry i dont believe as strongly as you do
6.i'm sorry i that i trusted you not to tell
7. i'm sorry for leaving you alone. i just couldnt stand it anymore
8.i'm sorry i get grouchy when i hurt
9. i'm sorry i am not as crazy as i used to. I guess i grew up
10. I'm sorry i didn't answer my phone

Nine confessions to nine different people:
1.I pretend like i care when you talk about him, i'd like nothing more than to tell you to remove your head from his a$$.
2.I understood how to do the work, i just wanted help!
3.I'm planning on marrying you :) so plan accordingly
4.Your car is my favorite place in the world, even tho it is a station wagon :)
5. I think sometimes you get a little over dramatic.
6. I hate when you work shift work, i hardly ever see you and it sucks.
7. I checked your messages when you weren't looking. You gave me good reason to.
8. I ate the last banana popsicle and blamed it on your kid.
9. Mom was right!

Eight things you wish you could say to eight different people:
1. F*ck you!
2. Thank you, you are the only one who was always there.
3. You are amazing and i absolutely love you to death
4. I envy you for being so calm when every thing is falling apart.
5. Who the hell do u think you are to tell me what i'd do in that situation?
6. Get your head out of your ass
7. You're kid is a brat!!!!
8. You are beautiful, quit spending all that time in the mirror messing up perfection

Seven random people you miss:i thought you said no names?
1. A.F.H
2.V.M.R
3. The older, happier you!
4. N.R.D
5. R.M.E
6. J.D.E
7. T.B.C

Six different people you would do anything for:
1. Tory James
2. Meine Mutti :)
3. Meine Schwester
4. Meinen Vati
5. Nicole
6. Emma Grace

Five things you hope to accomplish before you die:
1.Get married
2.Have lots of babies :)
3.Eat ice cream on every continent
4.Buy a house
5.Rocking chairs on a porch, 'nuff said

Four words to describe your life:
1.stressful
2.unpredictable
3.ridiculous
4.hopeful

Three things you wish you could hold on to forever:
1.Girl nights
2. Rides to youth group in the beast!
3. His hand :)

Two most important things in your life:
1. My girls
2.My boy :)

One thing you know you want but will never have:
perfect imperfection :D