Perception

Perception (per⋅cep⋅tion)

/pərˈsɛpʃən/ Show Spelled Pronunciatio[per-sep-shuhn]

–noun

1.	the act or faculty of apprehending by means of the senses or of the mind; cognition; understanding.

2.	immediate or intuitive recognition or appreciation, as of moral, psychological, or aesthetic qualities; insight; intuition; discernment: an artist of rare perception.

3.	the result or product of perceiving, as distinguished from the act of perceiving; percept.

4.	Psychology. a single unified awareness derived from sensory processes while a stimulus is present.

It all comes down to how you see the world. Strength: define it. Beauty: prove it. Hell: explain it. Perfection: attain it. There is good and bad in every situation that one comes up against in life. I have to keep telling myself that or I risk losing my sanity. If I choose to concentrate on the negative- I lose. You can either let situations take hold, break, and define you or you can look for a way to grow from it. Even if it is only something as trivial as knowing better for the next time. Sometimes we just have to take a step back, and look, for the silver lining.

Put up your umbrella and dance in the rain...

:..dance in the rain..:

Sometimes it's too easy to lose sight of any good. It's too simple to get lost somewhere in hell and not be able to make it back out.
The past two years have been extremely frustrating. For various reasons. It becomes all too easy to stay pissed at God when things get out of control. After losing a friend to death, and then a lot of them due to circumstances, I learned to stand on my own.
I'm still lost, at least part of the time. I feel like i'm always trying to pick things back up. I would love nothing more than to just go back in time. Daily there is a constant battle being waged between staying upset and working to get better. I want to get better, I want to breathe easier. I want things to be as simple as they were before.

I miss:

• Youth group- This saved my sanity. Now I'm not sure how much further I have to go before I get to call myself insane.
• Weekends at the Grubbs- I spent the other day with Chelsea, let me tell you, I miss that family dearly. I just pray that they don't look at me any differently now after hearing about the "mess". I loved being the fourth Grubbs daughter. Waking up on Sunday mornings as part of the family...
• Emma Grace- My goodness, I miss this child! She never fails to bring a smile to my lips. She is becoming such a little lady. So grown up and becoming so beautiful.
• The guys- I really do miss them. They constantly made me laugh and cheered me up when I was down.
• The girls- At this point, thinking about this makes me cry. I wish I could fix everything but I'm not sure that I can. I can't take on all their problems when I'm trying to deal with mine. I love them dearly and I miss them terribly but I think I'm afraid to let them back in.
  
• Whitestone- I know I don't have nearly as many memories as the others have, but I just can't help being a little sentimental about that building.
• Fae- Rest in peace angel baby. All my love...
  

Wow, sleep is very much so necessary.

A picture is worth a thousand words...

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Tutus and Tiaras

Remember when we were little girls? With twirling skirts, starry eyes, and the highest expectations in relationships. Our daddies were the strongest, best, coolest daddies ever, and mommy's kisses magically made everything better. Beautiful gowns with beaded bodices were created out of mom's old slip and grandma's lace curtains. Plastic gems on plastic jewelry became crown jewels and untold riches. Cardboard boxes have the power to transform into castles, limos, or woodland cottages.

How did we fall from this? Now, we fall over and over for guys that don't catch us until we are kneeling on the floor with dirty, bloody knees and a broken pride. We continually accept less than what we deserve. We settle for "just whatever" over and over again. How did we stumble from the fairy tale?

Stand up little girl, and dust yourself off.
Quit staring in the mirror and messing up perfection.
Wipe off the dirt,
Put on your tutu, tiara and plastic gems,
And finally live!